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100 Questions to Inspire Rapid Self-Discovery & Understanding: Q&A #19 & #20

A short while ago, I met a church member at a coffee house to sit and chit chat. I see her every Sunday and we’re Facebook “friends” but had never had a real conversation. So, I invited her to “coffee.” And, by “coffee” I mean vanilla bean cream frapps. I’m asking the usual questions What do you do? What do you do for fun? Where are you from? when out of the blue she asks So, what’s your salvation story? Huh? What? Um…

It reminded me of Alexandra Frazen’s 100 Questions to Inspire Rapid Self-Discovery & Understanding. People are so much more than their occupation, relationship status, and the town they grew up in. And, if we asked these questions around the table, I think we’d all get to know, really know, each other a little bit better.

So, I’m going to post & answer one or more questions per week. Answer the question for yourself in the comments. Or, you could type your answer as a blog post. Just be sure to link-up with me so we can all read your answer.

So, are you ready to learn more about me than you ever wanted to know?!! This should be fun!

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Question #19

If you could sit down with your 15-year old self, what would you tell him or her?

Whoa. This one is kind of deep.

I never do well with these kinds of assignments because I always feel like if I changed everything, I wouldn’t be who I am…So, I don’t know what the ‘new’ outcome would be because I didn’t travel that path and never lived that life. Sigh. 

f I could sit down with my sophomore self…

Brandi, forget the guys. Both of ’em. Focus on making the best grades you can. Go to USC. Study abroad. Read your Bible. Your best friend kind of wrote it. Someone you barely speak to will become your best friend. Be kind to him. Pray for him. He’s going to be your husband. 😉 You’re not going to go into a conventional career. You’re too out-of-the-box for that. Workout daily! Talk to someone about your suicide ideation. You’re far too valuable to hang yourself just for the attention of those who mistreated you, knowingly and unknowingly.

Ya know, I don’t know how to help her….

Part of me wants to tell her to do the things that adult Brandi was able to do, but I can’t tell her to do something she’s not mature enough to do.

15 year old Brandi was about to enter a time of feeling very alone and worthless. This is when the “I am a burden,” feelings became predominate thoughts. Always needing a ride from friends…or their parents. Feeling waaaay different because everyone else’s mom was at their games…. Sitting on the sidewalk with the coach waiting for my grandma to pick me up after away games…Feeling bad for waking my grandma up to come out so late at night…

Around this time I’d break up with my boyfriend who I had replaced as my entire support system, my entire family, my mom and dad…

It was a rough couple of years…

Question #20

What are you BORED of?

I’m bored of MYSELF. I’m in that phase where I’m battling between old Brandi and new Brandi. Old Brandi wants to stay in the house and sit on the couch while new Brandi needs sunlight, social time, and adventure. TD Jakes summed it up quite nicely for me!

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Yes & Amen!

What about you? 

With love,

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